It is once again November that means it is National Novel Writers Month or NaNoWriMo. I have participated the last 6 years but have only won once with a novel that I then edited and put on Amazon. Obviously, it went nowhere but it meant a lot to me to put it out in the world.
As I am writing this it is the morning of November 5th. The first few days of the month I have gotten over 1700 words a day in a NA fantasy romance. I hate it. I know, many writers say they hate their work but you know what? This isn’t even something I would want to read and I love NA fantasy romance. I can’t imagine myself continuing along with these characters or this plot line.
THE FOLLOWING PARAGRAPHS CONTAIN TRIGGER WARNINGS FOR SELF HARM AND SUICIDE
So, late last night I made a decision. I am scrapping my previous project and starting on another one that has been beating around in my brain. This one is considerably darker and feels much more real to me. It is also NA fantasy but without the frills, laughter, and ruffles that I had found myself putting into the previous one. I came to the conclusion that those things simply don’t suit my personality and forcing them out of me made me miserable.
This new project showcases a woman in her late teens/early twenties (I haven’t buttoned down an exact age) who is at the end of her rope physically and mentally. All her life she has been at the receiving end of mental and physical abuse and she sees no way out of the cycle. The first scene is her debating whether or not to take her own life. She ends up doing so but a god of the underworld steps in and offers her a way out that will give her retribution against those who have hurt her if she will help him first. She accepts and awakens being gifted with some of the gods abilities and a need for revenge.
Now, I may end up changing that because I realize suicide and self harm are very triggering but I feel like it makes perfect sense in the character’s greater arc. So many people have suicidal thoughts and tendencies and some of those occur due to the hands of abuse from others. It is a very real thing that more people grapple with than show up in statistics. Statistics only show those who have followed through or sought help in some form or another.
Since I am working hard on my writing this month my blog will be taking a back seat. I may pop in for a few posts but it is not going to be my focus through November.
I hope you are all staying healthy, physically and mentally, and happy reading.